Drug Addiction: Methadone Facts

Question: Is this drug addiction or do i just like drugs too much?

(Posted by: on 2010-08-30 03:08:21)

Been doing drugs since i was like 14 getting pretty cole to 20 years old now. im wondering if theres anybody out there who was or is like this. every bit of money i come across in last year or 2 has been used to buy drugs. when ever there is any thing that can get me high i can get my hands on i take it. its gotten rediculous. last night i got hold of some money. within 20 minutes i turned that money into 8 xtc pills. i didnt used to be like this i control how much i used with anytype of drug and i did a decent job of rationing all the drugs i got ahold of so i could stay high all day and still kind of control myself. now i use what ever number of drugs i have on hand all at once. if i have computer duster ill huff the can clean in 10 minutes, if i have 2 or 3 bottles of robotussin in front of me ill drink all 3 straight from the bottle all at once. if i have vicodin or percocets or oxy or norcos in front of me ill do how ever much i possibly can right under the overdose limit. if i pick up a quad of weed ill smoke that in one sitting, basically i do how ever much of any drugs i physically can and dont ration it all anymore. last night i took 8 pills of xtc. i took all 8 pills (very strong pokeballs i might add) within a 5 hour period. heart was beating out of my chest and im not really sure i was concious the whole time either. must have spent well over a thousand bucks since christmas on drugs not including what ive stollen and stuff. when im not high im making phonecalls to try and make money or to pick up. i actually dream about drugs now. its like im chasing a level of high i can never reach. been hospitalised for my mass binge use before. i mix very dangerous combos of drugs when ever i get nuff money too. for instance 3 days ago i took 4 xtc pills, 5 grams of shrooms, and 11 percocets and few grams of weed all at once. the only time im having fun is when im high. and when im not high im anxiously waiting to get high again. i dont do the same drug long enough to get phsyical withdrawls usually because im constantly doing different drugs or multiple drugs switching off. i fear i might be mentally addicted now though because for one i dont have any friends i dont get high with anymore. i even steal and pinch off friends so i can get higher when they aint looking. i wish i felt more guilty about my use im kind of a robot now happy when if high and spaced out and emotionless when im not. anybody been like this before? ive gotten more and more scetch and lost some homies from being the way i is lately. i dont know whether im like mentally addicted or whether drugs have just became my main focus in life now.. what ya think?

Posted by: bustalusta on 2010-08-30, 03:14:38

Yea man sounds like ur in pretty bad shape. Try and get away from everything if you can for a couple months, like move with a friend or family member that doesnt do drugs in a different town or area. I think that might work. If you can't do that, then just try and cutting out the really harmful stuff first like cocaine, oxy, heroin, etc. Try and just stick with weed fro a while, that will make it easier to come off everything. Just remember dont give up hope and that it takes time to quit. remember taht even though it feels good mentally, ur really screwing urself up. You don't want to get retarded mentally and have health issues as well from too much drug use. Think about that next time you use hard drugs man. Anyways good luck bro.

Posted by: Shamz on 2010-08-30, 03:13:16

You are mentally addicted, mental addiction is liking the a drug or well the state that the drug brings you in, so they are both related, and there's a bit of physical addiction as well in there, your brain now after such long period of being subjected to drugs has learned to deal with it and changed the chemical balance in order to continue working properly, however seeing that drugs aren't in the system 24/ 7 when they are not they then you are a lot more "down then you would've been normally. The only solution here is to stop for a good while and let your brain get back on track. As an example with xtc the pill makes your brain fire out serotonin and also let's stay in there for longer, as it works as an SSRI as well, the brain however doesn't want to have too much serotonin as that can be fatal, so it lowers the production of it, and also after taking a xtc pill the next day you will have a been subjected to serotonin depletion and you will be depressed or a lot more sad, seeing that serotonin controls your moods.

Posted by: Kynamite on 2010-08-30, 03:14:34

Well this is either addiction or a way to deal with something depressing or sad that has happened. For example when my dad died I started fighting people at school a lot; my mum took me to a psychiatrist and she said that it could just be away to deal with what happened. not much to say really but answer this and I could help you a bit more :)

Posted by: Demon Lord Noctorno (aka Volke) on 2010-08-30, 03:14:47

1. You need to go get help. If this addiction continues on, you could be doing more damage to your body. 2. There are better things to spend your money on. Do not use that money on drugs. How about using that money to keep a roof over your head or to keep yourself fed each day. Sorry if this is coming off blunt.

Posted by: Em on 2010-08-30, 03:17:38

In my expierience pills are harder to get addicted to but yes you are addicted because you rely on them to feel ok but seeing as maybe its not a pysical addiction then theres issues why your doing this right? you dont like reality? extassy give you like, a higher state of conciousness, but its fake you cant live in that world any more. go to a doctor, you wont get in any s***, you just gotta get help. cos it may be a mental addiction but it can kill you.

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Posted by: Bronnii on 2010-08-30, 03:46:01

Yes it is an addiction that you will most likely need professional help to break

Posted by: Frankiesgirl Forever on 2010-08-30, 20:08:00

I think that you are trying to cope with something, some underlying issue or damage caused in your life. I don't think your addicted to drugs (yet), and hears why. There are those that will take anything and everything, using drugs as an outlet, because they lack the skills to cope. These people have an addictive personality or gene, but have not attempted "the drug " that will cause full dependence. This type of abuser is ticking time bomb. The personality/ gene is there, they are just unknowingly playing Russian roulette with different substances, eventually trying the one drug that creates a full blown addict, wholly dependent on a specific drug. There are also those who may go on a month long binge, putting the drug down one day and not touch or think about it until someone pulls it out of their pocket 12 months later. They later become dependent when the access to the drug (some how) becomes unlimited . These are examples of drug abusers evolving into addicts. Initially consuming drugs because they can or want to, but do not have cravings, withdrawal, or allow a specific drug to control their life. You are the ticking time bomb. You consume whatever you can get, so you don't have to deal. Being sober makes you deal with reality and all of the decisions and responsibilities that come with it and any form of euphoria that postpones that has you "mentally " content. Although you seem to only have a mental addiction now (BIG in xtc users), you are on the road to becoming a full blown addict. If you continue, you will eventually start trying to consume "the random drugs " differently, most likely because of your tolerance level, combined with the cost. For example; the same drug will bring a different high when consumed in different ways. So instead of taking pills orally with a glass of water, you will turn to a faster and stronger way of consumption, like crushing/ snorting and maybe even injecting. Or you will eventually come across "that drug " that will have you hooked on the first try, consuming you that moment. You will know when and if this happen. Most drug addicts, especially addicts addicted to the stronger drugs, can look back and say they vividly remember that day, that moment, and that decision, wishing they had chosen something different, calling it the biggest regret of their lives. I honestly think you can easily help your self by going to see a psychiatrist. Find out this underlying issue and what you are trying to avoid, having them properly medicate you at the same time. An antidepressant, anti-anxiety, or both medications will help with coping as well as detour the feelings of anxiety and misery you maybe experiencing while sober. If you don't want to do that, the less healthier action would be to stay away from the harder drugs like heroin, cocaine, meth, and Oxycontin. I say this because chances are if you don't get professional help and the prescribed meds to correct whatever chemical imbalance you have, you will probably continue to self medicate anyways. So for the purpose of not having to fight the future evil of full blown addiction, staying away from the hard drugs is your best bet.